I initially started this blog with my direction to be on the fashion and make up side, and it has been in some aspects. Unfortunately, my best writing comes from what I feel, not what I think. I love fashion, I actually did serious damage at the mall today, but the reason I did was because I got my heart broken. Broken like it used to get in high school before I taught myself not to care. I cared. I cared and it got the best of me. On the bright side, I got to drink a mimosa in Michael Kors and bought the shoes I've been dying for, I got red lipstick from MAC, I bought a fantastic bracelet from Bloomingdale's called Alex and Ani, and got lots of goodies from Forever 21.
In order for me to go on this crazy shopping spree, I had to have my heart stomped all over. The one guy I have truly liked, and felt a connection with, burst it into pieces. Trust me I will be perfectly fine, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt right now. He has been giving me the run around, and when he asked me to hang out with him and his friends, I did. I had a wonderful night, and stayed with him till morning. I went home floating on cloud nine, in hopes things were changing for the best. It was too good to be true.
Shortly after the amazing time I had, he tried to turn me into a booty call. Mind you, he had been telling me I wasn't. This time was different. When I told him a gentleman doesn't speak that way to a woman, he claimed he was a gentleman. Then, he proceeded to try to get me to be a booty call. I told him I am not one and that I was disappointed in him. I waited a beat and told him that if I'm just a booty call I would have liked it if he would be straightforward about it from the beginning instead of letting me feel a certain way. He has said nothing to me. Not one single word. My heart is broken. Not for long. But, right now it stings a little bit.
I just wish he had be honest and not acted like he wanted to be my boyfriend or anything more than that. He should have kept it simple, and let me know where I stood. Now I had to find out the hard way where I stood. It bothers me that he couldn't say something, that he didn't have it in him to be honest. It hurts me more that he acted like my boyfriend. If you saw us in public, you wouldn't even think twice, you would assume we were boyfriend/girlfriend. I guess that's what through me off, he seemed genuine. He seemed real and honest, and he wasn't. He tripped me up completely. I am upset that I got myself so wrapped up in a daydream, and didn't catch it before it happened. Maybe, I wasn't daydreaming, and he is just not a stable person. Stable enough, or respectful enough to truly do right by someone else. I don't think this has anything to do with what I did or didn't do. I think it has everything to do with him and his issues. He told me he has no faith in women, and that's all fine and dandy, but that doesn't mean you should count every woman out. I feel like I was counted out.
I know it'll heal on it's own, bit by bit. I will move forward with my life, but I can't help how I feel right now, in this moment. It feels pretty low. A very unwanted feeling has flooded over me. A good man will come my way when the time is right in my life. This point in time is not right for me I suppose. I just need to get a good nights sleep, and start fresh tomorrow. Every second is a chance to change your life, so change it for the better.
Ask, Believe, Receive,
Julie Catherine.
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