All My Friends Say...

At 24 years old, I still can't seem to switch from emotional to logical, especially after a few free shots of Fireball. I very seldom drink, and when I go to get a drink, it's usually Starbucks. I think drinking is a foul habit that makes people act in a way they would never normally, but I fell victim last night.

Sunday Funday is supposed to be football and beer, and it started that way. I met up with friends around two o'clock at a bar in Hoboken. We ordered pitchers of beer, ate wings, and watched the Jets and the Buccaneer's. I was having a fabulous time, and someone decided to order one shot of Fireball, which I wasn't opposed to. One shot never hurt anybody...

After the game was over, my friend and I found ourselves a new friend in the bartender. Every time we turned around, he had granted us more shots of Fireball. I bought one more beer, and before I knew it I was drunk. I was walking outside with my friends, and the unthinkable happened. There are hundreds of bars in Hoboken, and the guy I like had to come to the one I was at. Of all the places. Him and I have not spoken in months, and he pulled total douche lord moves, one right after the other. Not that long ago I finally deleted his number because it no longer provided me anything. What's the point in holding on to something already gone.

I said hello to his friends, and he wouldn't even look at me. Totally ignored my existence. Let me state I have never done anything wrong to this person to be treated this way. I was always nice and kind to him, and he proved he did not deserve any of it at all. So, I began getting wild and when I was supposed to leave at six, I realized it was now seven. I began dancing with his friends, and he had the nerve to tell a girl to tell me that she was his girlfriend, what he doesn't know is she came to me and told me what he said, she said she didn't know his name, and that he was an asshole for even asking her to do that. Us women tend to stick together.

I was having a great time playing the come back kid role, but it all came to a crashing halt when I watched him kiss another girl right in front of me. My stomach fell, he really had the nerve. The girl was friends with the girl I mentioned previously, and she told me that she has a boyfriend and that she just wanted to have fun. Then, somehow the girl he kissed apologized to me because she felt for me. At this point, I have felt so many urges to just get up and leave, just go. Sober me would have booked it out of there as soon as I saw him, but that logical switch didn't turn on.

Clearly, I was glutton for punishment. We all make mistakes being young and drunk and stupid, but this really is the cherry on top of all of my moronic mistakes. The biggest mistake I made was ever taking this person more seriously than what he was, a douche lord. When a person presents their true colors to you, you should probably take serious note. If I ever found out my son behaved the way he did, I would ream him a new one. I told my mom exactly the way I behaved, and she was nothing short of furious with me. I behaved a way I would normally never, but I was a Fireball fueled emotional train wreck.

What really makes this all very interesting, is they always say we want what we can't have. I have plenty of men who take me on dates, and treat me like a queen, but I was stuck on this one person who wasn't worth a damn. The only thing that set him a part from the rest, was he wasn't at my beckon call. It's a sick twisted cycle we all fall into at some point or another. I just have to chalk this up to a learning experience, he served his purpose in my life, and that's all there is to it.

Moving forward, I hope other people read this a take warning about when a person begins to act funny toward you, it's because they're being a scumbag and cannot be trusted. Let them go. If they are stupid enough to walk out of your life, hold the door wide open for them. Keeping people who don't bring anything to the table in your life is just foolish. I was working on an emotional end, and not at the logical end. One good thing I learned from a wise man by the name of Joe Budden is, "Relationships are never a threat, I'll erase the history and act like we never met." You better believe I did just that. Adios sucker!

All my friends say, I started shootin' doubles when you walked in.
All my friends say, I went a little crazy seein' you with him
You know I don't remember a thing, but they say I sure was raising some cain
I was a rockstar, party hard, getting over you, come back kid, yeah I must have did
What all my friends say...

Ask, Believe, Receive,
Julie Catherine