Hopeless Romantic in Jersey

I've always seen myself as a housewife, after I have my children of course, taking care of my family and my husband. I want a beautiful, happy, healthy, loving marriage and family. I'm 23 and it's not like I expire soon, but I don't think it's unacceptable for that to be my goal. I want the sexy husband and the hot marital sex that produces gorgeous babies. Why should I be ashamed of that?

I'm well educated, and I easily take care of myself. I'm fit and in shape for myself, and I dress up cause I like being my own personal barbie doll. I read books like a total nerd, I enjoy hockey like no other, I can play softball, baseball, mow a lawn, spackle a wall, lay down mulch, take out the trash, and I can cook like I should have my own show on the Food Network. I know I have a lot going for me, I can be a bit annoying cause I talk entirely too much, but if you don't like it, you don't have to listen.

Sometimes I just want to be swept off my feet and have my damn socks knocked off. I wanna be loved unconditionally and treated like someones princess. When I say princess I don't mean spoiled with things. I wanna be protected and romanced like no other. I want roses covered in glitter, chocolate covered strawberries, amazing conversation, and hot sex. Is this asking too much? I won't settle for anything less than the best and what I deserve.

I know I have my flaws, like I said before I'm annoying. I know I talk too much. It's what makes me who I am though. I'm very sensitive and I want everyone to like me and be nice to me at all times. My feelings get hurt very easily. I just want to hear, "Hey, that's okay! You're still amazing the way you are." I doubt I'm reaching here.

What kills me these days though is there's so many thirsty chicks that want a man for his money or sex. I  want a man, not a little boy. These girls hop on these tables like bottle rats and act like trash bags, but wonder why they are deemed thirsty. HMM? Time to get your life together. I don't think having the high standards that I have should be seen as thirsty. I think it should be seen as a respectable woman who is someone mommy and daddy will adore.

So my question is, can I be swept off my feet? Can I get a little romance? I'm not an overly romantic person, but I am thoughtful, and if you tell me you like something once, I'll go out and get it just to see you smile. I feel more than I show because I'm terrified of rejection. I just want my doubt to disappear and I want to be fully faithful in the fact that I deserve sparks, butterflies, fireworks, and actual honest real love.

Ask, Believe, Receive
Julie Catherine